Wednesday, April 29, 2009


So here we are, another test of my endurance, and I failed. Today when I went to start our passports, I was told that the consent forms for Robert's passport wasn't notarized correctly. How does a notary mess up, you ask? They didn't fill in the part with the signing party's ID info, that's how. I start crying, because I've been overwelmed with a lot of stuff and doing everything on my own. The passport agaent then tells me not to get upset with her, because it's not her fault. I tell her I'm not upset with her, that I'm just upset and to just let me be upset.
I've been through so much while Oz has been in Korea. In August my car wouldn't go into gear, and it was the day of Bella's birthday party. In September, I got really sick and had to go to the emergency room and was sick for over a week. In November I had my first argument with Phil about money and us moving to Germany. In February Bella got mastoiditis and was sick for 3 weeks. During the months of December, January and February, I'm going back and forth to the courthouse getting all the guardian papers completed for Dylan. From January to March I'm getting all our overseas clearance papers done and being led back and forth to people who apparently don't know their jobs. And in April, Phil gives me papers that he's taking me to court for Robert, my back goes out and I can't even do our passports! I wish Oz was here to help me or that something would just go smoothly. Please, God, is that too much to ask?

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Tuesday's Prayer

I know I ask for many things, I am grateful for all my answered prayers. Father, please relieve my back pain. I know I should be more careful, but I do believe with all the stress I've been under, and my mind going over things, is the reason I lifted Bella wrong and am now having to take it easy. Please just let me get well enough to get through the next 2 months.
Lord, please be with Oz as he is finishing all his outprocessing from Korea. Let him make it home to me and our kids safely. Please be with Bella's therapist, Toby, as she starts her new job. Thank you for helping her find a job where she can work less and be with her family more. Her boys are at a age where they need their mother to help them make right decisions. Father, help heal all my friends that are sick and all others that are sick. With all that is going on in the world today, I feel more people should turn to you. Maybe then this world will be a safer place and a more enjoyable place for all. Thank you, Father, for all the blessings you bestow upon me. Amen.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Prayer for the day

Lord, thank you for being there for me all the time. Thank you for my Oz and my children. I'd like to ask you to help my friend Katie Withrow. She's in the hospital and pregnent. Her husband is deployed, and I know the added stress is not good for her or baby. I ask that you be with her and heal her. I'd also like to pray for my friend Kim Cirone. She was in a car accident and is now feeling pain. Help to heal her and her children. Her husband is also deployed. I ask also that you watch over Robert this weekend, because he will be with his dad, Phil. Help Phil to be alert and have him keep Robert close to him. I don't want another stranger to touch my son again. Please be with all my friends and my children and myself. Thank you, Father. Amen.

Monday, March 9, 2009

My Myspace blog

What the Bible says about tattoos

Okay...this one always gets thrown at me for obvious reasons. So this is what I think about it. In Leviticus 19:28 it says: You shall not make cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor tattoo marks on you: I am the Lord. How it reads to me is that I shouldn't tattoo "I am the Lord" on my body. I mean, what about piercings? And then there is my favorite, Leviticus 19:19 which says: Nor shall a garment of mixed linen and wool come upon you. Has everyone checked their labels. I myself wear cotton, but sometimes the dressier outfits are mixed linen. So do we question the people that wear mixed linens or would they be offended? Hmmm...I know that I pray to God everyday, I ask Him forgiveness throughout the day, and He is the only one that can judge me. I wish people wouldn't be so judgemental. If people would take the time to know me, they would know where my heart is and what I believe. That's my rant for today. Thanks for reading.

Going on Wednesday

Well, I'll be going in for my mammogram on Wednesday. They say it's not a screening but a diagnostic. Not sure what the difference is? I've been so stressed that now I have stiff neck and shoulders. Argh!!!

Monday, March 2, 2009

Can't Sleep

So here it is...a week and a half ago I found a hard lump in my breast. I would feel for it everyday, because I kept telling myself it was my imagination. Last Friday I made an appointment to have it checked out and I'll be going on Thursday...but it's kinda freaking me out. First I kept telling myself it's fat. Never had I wanted something on my body to be fat so badly! I feel for it everyday, hoping it will be gone, but it's not. So I haven't really talked about it with anyone, because I'll start crying. I mentioned it to Viv today, but I played it off I knew it was nothing. Oh, I truly hope that it is nothing. I'm writing this here, because I know only 3 people read this and I'm hoping by the time someone does read this, I have gone to the doctor and they tell me it's nothing. I just had to type out my thoughts and I guess wanted to reach out to someone. I don't know...

Monday, February 23, 2009

My Myspace Blog(for those who aren't on myspace, Angie)

Monday, February 23, 2009
Warning: Contents May Be Offensive To Some...Current mood: thoughtfulCategory: Blogging
But they are my own views, and a lady angered me, so I'm venting! So I'm at the commissary, at the self check, finishing up, putting my bags into my cart. The lady behind me gets into my personal space and is like pushing me along. Mind you that I did notice this lady earlier with her daughter, and I was thinking that they could make healthier choices than what they were putting in their cart, but anyways...Well, looking at her food choices, it got my mind going(oh, no!) and I'm looking at her and her daughter, who looks to be 13 or 14, but her waist is larger than mine. Those who know me, know I'm a big girl, and no teenager should be bigger than me. A lot of stuff in her cart has high fat and MSG(bad, bad) and there is hardly any fruits or vegetables...they had a bag of red potatoes. With all this information out there about how we should be teaching our children healthier habits, you think people would start caring. Aren't are children and their health worth that little extra? I wish my parents didn't have so much crap in the house when I was growing up, then maybe I wouldn't be struggling so much now with my weight. I mean, really, all this stuff is on the news and in magazines. If your waist is larger than 35 inches, you should really be worried about heart health. I'm pushing it right now, my waist is 33 1/2 inches. When Bella was sick, I started doing more research on MSG, and it's bad stuff, people. And it's in almost everything. Soups, flavored chips, pre-made dips, bouillon, bbq sauce, salad dressing, etc. In the 3 weeks I was home with Bella, I cut everything that had msg out of our diets, and lost 2 pounds without eating less or working out. MSG tricks your body into thinking that it's getting more protien and then it produces more insulin...which if not used, turns into fat. I have PCOS, and my body already produces too much insulin, so it's really bad for me. Anyways...I just got angry at this lady, and in being angry at her my mind starts going into overdrive...I know, it's not usually a good thing. But looking at her daughter, it just made me sad. Because her mom isn't teaching her good eating habits, she suffers. Is that really fair? As a mom, I don't want my children having weight issues or struggling with food when they grow up. I want the best for them, to me, they are so worth it. I have people tell me all the time that healthy food is too expensive. When I changed our food lists, it's not that much of a difference. I think I spend an extra $30 a month. My kids are worth it, and so is my health. Okay, vent over. I hope I didn't anger or offend anyone. I do love and care about everyone who is able to read my blog, and these are only my views. Thank you for taking the time to read:o)
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Absolutely no offense!!! We've discussed this topic before a time or two. It saddens me as well to see an obese person or family together food shopping and/or eating out and they are eating crap.I know it's their life and their business, but sometimes I so badly want to say, hey, those Twinkies and Doritos are so bad for you!! This is why cancer is so common, because we consumer too many ready-made, heavily processed foods! Word of advice peeps...more fruits, veggies, homemade cake/muffins/etc. vs. store made with preservatives and other junk. READ THE LABELS OF WHAT YOU EAT!!!! Eat organic when possible.Shop Trader Joe's when possible and save a TON!!! Thanks for the rant! And just remember, we can't save everyone.:o)
Posted by Shannon on Monday, February 23, 2009 - 12:15 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User]


Speaking of Organic, the commissary has organic tortilla chips by Mission. And they only cost$1.89:o) I got that and some wholly guacamole(thanks to you) and had that for my snack today.Yummy!
Posted by julie on Monday, February 23, 2009 - 2:19 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User]


i couldn't agree with you more. i make my kiddos eat healthy, too. my parents always, always had sugar cereals and junk in my house. i didn't know that i what i was eating was *too* terribly bad for me. we don't keep that junk in our house. sure, we splurge. who doesn't? no offense taken here, sweet<3. and it is so sad when you see overweight children..smoochesmiranda
Posted by miranda. on Monday, February 23, 2009 - 12:52 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User]


My kids and myself do splurge, you know I love finger foods:o) But I try to make everything and when we do eat store bought, I'm reading labels. Except with Krispy Kremes, I guess I should be looking those up. I know they're bad, but we only eat them every once in awhile. Everything in moderatin, right? Thanks for the comment.
Posted by julie on Monday, February 23, 2009 - 1:48 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User]


This was not offensive at all! I know I am not the healthiest person, but when I see people who obviously overendulge at every meal, it make me kinda sad for them! When people complain that eating healthier is more expensive, that is bull poop! Because if you think about it a bag of apples is so much cheaper than a box of hostess! soo it is really more about quality over quantity! And another thing is people want to sit around and eat hostess cakes all day and never get up and do as much as take a walk.When I was growing up we did not have alot of money, so we did what most people did back then and had Hamburger helper every night! HOW am I still alive?
Posted by Kimberly on Monday, February 23, 2009 - 6:18 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User]


No more Hamburger helper, it also has MSG. I was shocked, because I wanted to make something quick, but when I read the ingredients, I put it back and got organic roasted tomatoes, organic kidney beans, ground turkey, onion, garlic and some whole grain pasta and made goulash.It was yummy and the kids loved it! It also took as long as hamburger helper would've taken, just healthier:o) thanks for you comment!
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