Wednesday, April 29, 2009


So here we are, another test of my endurance, and I failed. Today when I went to start our passports, I was told that the consent forms for Robert's passport wasn't notarized correctly. How does a notary mess up, you ask? They didn't fill in the part with the signing party's ID info, that's how. I start crying, because I've been overwelmed with a lot of stuff and doing everything on my own. The passport agaent then tells me not to get upset with her, because it's not her fault. I tell her I'm not upset with her, that I'm just upset and to just let me be upset.
I've been through so much while Oz has been in Korea. In August my car wouldn't go into gear, and it was the day of Bella's birthday party. In September, I got really sick and had to go to the emergency room and was sick for over a week. In November I had my first argument with Phil about money and us moving to Germany. In February Bella got mastoiditis and was sick for 3 weeks. During the months of December, January and February, I'm going back and forth to the courthouse getting all the guardian papers completed for Dylan. From January to March I'm getting all our overseas clearance papers done and being led back and forth to people who apparently don't know their jobs. And in April, Phil gives me papers that he's taking me to court for Robert, my back goes out and I can't even do our passports! I wish Oz was here to help me or that something would just go smoothly. Please, God, is that too much to ask?


loveanjel4! said...

Stay positive hon, I know right now it seems you have the world on your shoulders but it will pass and before you know it Oz will be home. God knows you're a strong person and your experiences will just make you even more strong. I love ya and soon you will be here and we can share this wonderful experience together. HUGS!

Angie said...

Breath in, Breath out, and Pray, pray, Pray. When people don't know their jobs, go above them and get their bosses to do it, or to tell them to do it. When you get sick, take time for yourself. When the kids get sick, take care of them and love on them because you love them and one day they won't let you do that anymore. And just know that every step you take makes you that much STRONGER. You can do it all, and you will, and even though you don't want to and you hate every step, God knows you and knows what you can handle. Don't be afraid or ashamed to cry yourself to sleep and yell at God, and even hate your situations. That's human. I completely empathize with you. I love you Julie and I'll be praying for you.